Pray for...

I will start this today with asking for my family and friends to pray for a dear friend Brian. He is in the hospital where Dr's believe he has a type of "staph" infection. He had a temp of 104 when entering the third hospital in a week. They are not sure of the cause as of yet but are testing and treating him the best they know how at Rush Medical Center. He continues to have pain in his back and Knee that are unexplained. Medications have only had limited ability to mask his pain at this time. I hope to hear more from his wife "Robyn" as things are figured out but I would love prayers for Brian, Robyn, and their son's Tyler and Tanner; as well as his and her family's.

As for my continued struggle with Dr's and Jim in the pursuit of children... I am reminded again that it is all in Gods time. We had more blood work done and one more test to go. 13 vial's of my blood later I left the hospital last week. We are at a point of our final choice of invitro with Jim or going to a donor procedure. The choice "I feel" is more so up to Jim. The child we have will be ours and loved "with all the families hearts" no matter how we are blessed.

The biggest issue is money of course. It will cost over $10,000 out of pocket each try with invitro but more in the $1,000 range with a donor. OUCH!!! I want to make sure Jim is sure with his decision and to know the money spent will be well worth it. I am a bit afraid of the pain I would go through to do the invitro procedure "that makes me lean toward donor".

How is one to know what to do? I sure don't know! I can not choose for Jim but he does not want to either. Someone tell me not to stress myself. God give me strength!!!