Remember every moment

I know that most of my family are using the blogging to help get out what is in their heart and mind but I have not been able to get to that. I miss my little cousin Laurie with all my heart. I do!!! I keep thinking of all the holidays we (girlie cousins) played together. How many plays and programs do you think we put together every year? I am the oldest of all the girls and that in some ways I feel left out. I have so many memories but there was almost 9 years between Laurie and myself. In the last years we had started to get together to have what we call "Jr. Club" consisting of sisters (you know the blood related and non-blood related variety) This was giving me the oportunity to finally reconnect with the sisters that I had not been close to for a few years. Laurie took that away from me! I remember the last Jr. Club. She and I talked about our life's and her new fiance. Went over school and plans for the future. I know we left with I love you but I wish I had told her how much I love her and that she had so much to offer the world. One of the last Laurie memories I hold dear was a LGYC. It was late at night and there she was. At the camps Hoe Down. I watched everyone that night laughing and dancing as the square dance was called. I probably watched Laurie the most though! She had this glow about her as her hair whipped around while spinning and falling down laughing a few times. She made me feel like dancing! I do not want to miss out on my other sister's life's and to regret a lost word. May we each say what we mean and how we feel to the ones we love!

Lastly my update:
Well, more Dr appointments for me. I have to see a Dr due to the fact I am a High Risk patient. My history with blood clots; I found out today was not all just chance happening. There is a mutation (no I am not an alien) in my blood that makes it want to clot and not break up. What does this mean? Before and durring a pregnancy I will need to be monitored and on blood thinners. Not to big of a worry to me just irritating that I have to see yet another Dr. to get that worked out first. May I get in soon to see the Dr. and all go well! :)