Pray for...

I will start this today with asking for my family and friends to pray for a dear friend Brian. He is in the hospital where Dr's believe he has a type of "staph" infection. He had a temp of 104 when entering the third hospital in a week. They are not sure of the cause as of yet but are testing and treating him the best they know how at Rush Medical Center. He continues to have pain in his back and Knee that are unexplained. Medications have only had limited ability to mask his pain at this time. I hope to hear more from his wife "Robyn" as things are figured out but I would love prayers for Brian, Robyn, and their son's Tyler and Tanner; as well as his and her family's.

As for my continued struggle with Dr's and Jim in the pursuit of children... I am reminded again that it is all in Gods time. We had more blood work done and one more test to go. 13 vial's of my blood later I left the hospital last week. We are at a point of our final choice of invitro with Jim or going to a donor procedure. The choice "I feel" is more so up to Jim. The child we have will be ours and loved "with all the families hearts" no matter how we are blessed.

The biggest issue is money of course. It will cost over $10,000 out of pocket each try with invitro but more in the $1,000 range with a donor. OUCH!!! I want to make sure Jim is sure with his decision and to know the money spent will be well worth it. I am a bit afraid of the pain I would go through to do the invitro procedure "that makes me lean toward donor".

How is one to know what to do? I sure don't know! I can not choose for Jim but he does not want to either. Someone tell me not to stress myself. God give me strength!!!

Time

I knew I would be bad at writing but I will keep trying.
I wish I could have helped lift my amazing family up while they made their 20 mile walk on Saturday. I had all of you in my thoughts and prayers that day-night-day. I felt bad that I was not there cheering you on but not sure how I would even find you along to large crowd. I hope all went well and everyone's feet were light.
I am able to write today and try to catch up with all that is going on in and with me. It has been over a month since I wrote. WOW! What has been going on? I have been working, spending time with friends, and having fun.
Summer has been good and hot. Fireworks with friends. Went to Summerfest with the girls. Spent time with Dad on his boat to stay cool. I had so much fun swimming with Steph and Dad and Bagel(dog). It was Bagels first swim and she did really good!
I have to say "I love Hobby Lobby". If you know me, you know that store has everything a Heidi can want to craft and create. I say this because I found a new one in Kenosha which is about 20 min from me. I got lost in the new store for almost 3 hours by myself. By the time I called Jim to let him know where I was by heart was racing in excitement. It was very good for my soul!!! :)
I finally got the results of the long awaited tests Jim and I needed to proceed with our infertility battle. We will not be going to the Doctor on 7-20 to take another step forward. I am nervous and excited to see what all will come out of this day.
My thoughts of the chance to become a Mother is overwhelming.