Can I just float away on a cloud?

ANGRY!!!!!!!!

I do not understand people!!! I found out (and can't stop thinking about it) that someone from my company is talking about me. I was pulled aside by my boss and told that I need to be careful what I say and to who. He would not tell me ANY details. Just that he did not believe what he heard and defended me.
Why the hell can't people just do their damn job and go home. Some people have to make trouble for others. Does this make them feel better? Do they just hate everyone or are they just out for me?

Painted sky

I took this picture the other night. I am just amazed at each beautiful sunset I see.

When I get where I'm going

I love this song and when I sing it I alter the words slightly to fit me. It makes me cry every time I hear it and makes me love it even more!


By Brad Paisley and Dolly Parton


When I get where I am going
On the far side of the sky
The first thing that I'm gonna do
Is spread my wings and fly
I'm gonna land beside a lion
And run my fingers through his mane
Or I might find out what it's like
To ride a drop of rain

Yeah when I get where I'm going
There'll be only happy tears
I will shed the sins and struggles
I have carried all these years
And I'll leave my heart wide open
I will love and have no fear
Yeah when I get where I'm going
Don't cry for me down here


I'm gonna walk with my momma
And she'll match me step for step
And I'll tell her how I missed her
Every minute since she left
Then I'll hug her neck

Yeah when I get where I'm going
There'll be only happy tears
I will shed the sins and struggles
I have carried all these years
And I'll leave my heart open
I will love and have no fear
Yeah when I get where I'm going
Don't cry for me down here

So much pain and so much darkness
In this world we stumble through
All these questions I can't answer
So much work left to do

But when I get where I'm going
And see my makers face
I'll stand forever in the light
Of his amazing grace

Yeah when I get where I'm going
There'll be only happy tears

Hallelujah

I will love and have no fear
When I get where I'm going




I continue to miss my mom and struggle with wanting to be a mom. I had yet another attempt of insemination fail me this week. I try to understand how so many people that should not have children or don't want them have do trouble. I have been trying one way or another for almost five years! Am I to give up? Can I afford to continue trying?
All I can do is pray God hears my tears.